Sex at its Worst

The worst sex is baby-making sex. It starts off romantic, even inspired, but it quickly loses its charm. Some lucky couples may be exempt from my assessment. For example, the “oops couple” may have been having the time of their life only to find out that they are unexpectedly pregnant. Or, the “let’s stop the pill for one day and see what happens couple” may really enjoy the added benefit of being off of a medication that has a tendency to stifle orgasms and intense sex drive. For most of us, baby-making sex is timed, routine, get it done sex. It is layered with the stress of, “Will I ever get pregnant?” It may start off fun because the thought of making a baby together is beyond incredible, but when months start to pass and periods keep coming, the giddy gitters are replaced with a nervous question, “Will it ever happen?”

It would be nice to tie a bow around fertility and say that most of us have it. Realistically, one in eight couples struggles with infertility according to The National Survey of Family Growth from the Centers for Disease Control. That indicates that if more than eight of you are reading this, at least one of you is struggling with or will struggle with infertility. Not to rain on the stork’s parade, but this is something that women should be aware of so that they aren’t blindsided in their journey toward motherhood.

Knowing that you may struggle with infertility may be hard to acknowledge, but it may push you to seek help a little more quickly. Many women have embraced the career path, pushing back their nesting days into their thirties. In our culture this is more the norm than the exception, myself included. Although the typical rule of thumb is to try for at least a year before worrying about infertility, this doesn’t apply to those of us with ticking fertility clocks. Those of us desiring to enter the motherhood arena past the fertility prime of our twenties should be aware that the timetable is quite different. Women in their mid-thirties should actually consult an infertility specialist after only six months of unsuccessfully trying to make a baby the old-fashioned way based on current recommendations.

Although this may seem like a very short time to let nature take its course, the infertility workup path can be quite protracted. Many infertility clinics are booking out several months down the road. Completing a full infertility workup takes at least a month for all of the blood work, testing, follow up appointments, and decision making on how to proceed. So, if you haven’t gotten pregnant in six months, you most likely won’t even start infertility treatments for several months more. And, who is to say how many infertility treatments you will need before you actually get pregnant? Going into baby making in your thirties or forties with this knowledge may improve your chances of getting pregnant by encouraging you to be more proactive in investigating your fertility status sooner.

On a side note, some of you may be offended that I mention your twenties as your prime fertility years. Don’t start chewing me out. Biology and genetics are the ones running the show. I’m only stating the facts. Besides, it’s not like I’m in my twenties either. It is a confirmed fact that our ovaries have fewer and fewer healthy eggs with each passing year. Acknowledge it. Accept it. Embrace the fact that you are no longer in your twenties!

In addition to seeking an infertility evaluation sooner, knowing that one in eight couples struggles with infertility may also make you feel just a little bit less broken. People who are getting pregnant share the news. This is why it may seem like you are the only one not getting pregnant. People who are infertile often keep it to themselves. Infertility is a heavy word. It is weighted with shame, embarrassment, and feelings of inadequacy, despair, and desperation. Even the most optimistic couple can’t help but feel a little defeated when faced with this diagnosis. The possibility that parenthood may never be in their future can be world shattering. Knowing that you aren’t an anomaly can soften the blow…just a little bit. And, in the midst of an infertility diagnosis, any softening helps immensely.

In addition to knowing you aren’t alone with your infertile status, being aware that infertility is common (6.7 million women in the United States alone struggle with infertility according to the Centers for Disease Control) may nudge you to find a support system sooner than you would have. When my husband and I realized that making a baby the natural way was most likely unattainable for us, I struggled with the reality that I was an infertility patient. I went to most of my appointments alone, and even though I was in a waiting room filled with other women struggling with similar experiences, an uneasy silence filled the space between us. This silence was laced with pain, fear, and cautious hope. Why we didn’t reach out to each other always confused me. I assume that we wanted to respect each other’s privacy. We didn’t want to overstep the invisible barriers that each of us had build around us. Looking back, I would do things differently. I would risk a little more. I would trade in my pride for the support that these women could have offered. Maybe they didn’t need me (doubtful), but I needed the support that they could have offered. I now realize that enormous support exists for those of us carrying a diagnosis of infertility including online support groups such as Resolve, community support groups, and wow, probably one of our eight friends who is in a similar predicament. If we would be willing to share our story with others, they may just be willing to share their story with us.

If you find that baby making sex isn’t your forte either, embrace the fact that you can throw your birth control pills down the toilet for good! Sex can be entirely recreational and for passion and love’s sake alone. And, although the infertility journey may be the most difficult one that you take, starting the process sooner may increase your chances of success. You are not alone in this journey. Reach out early, and the stamina and strength you garner from other women’s stories may surprise you. Nothing is more powerful than women empowering other women in their journey toward motherhood.

Your Darling, 



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